Motherhood.

Motherhood, to me, means raising and caring for a family.

Two years after we were married, we have our first child. A son.
Just what I wanted. ;)

I never had an older brother so I wanted our children to have the privilege.
And now, 4 kids later, we have all boys. :P

I don't know what it is, but raising boys has become somewhat difficult. It's not so much that they are all boys, as it is that they all having very DIFFERENT personalities. And my personality is also on a different position in that spectrum.

I make mistakes every day as a mother.

I am impatient.

I don't spend as much quality time with each of the kids.

I yell. (ugh!)

I compare my parenting skills to other moms.

Ultimately, I am not perfect. I set my expectations too high, I realize.

I was listening to some personal development yesterday and in that podcast there was mentioned the story of a mom who took her son to see Ghandi and she plead with him to tell her son to stop eating sweets... that it was bad for him and is bad for his teeth, etc. She said her son was not listening to her. Ghandi responded by telling the mom to come back to him in 2 weeks. Confused, she waited two weeks and returned. After pleading with Ghandi again about her same concern, Ghandi then knelt down and told the boy, "Stop eating sweets." The mother questioned Ghandi and why he hadn't said that to him 2 weeks ago. He then responded, "Two weeks ago I was eating sweets. I couldn't tell him to stop when I, myself, was eating them."

"Be the change you want to see in someone."

I'm not saying everyone will change based on this quote, BUT I believe it is true in principle. If I don't want the boys yelling and arguing, then I need to stop yelling and arguing with them.

If I was the boys to be patient and not throw fits, then I need to be patient myself and model what that behavior looks like.

We are walking examples to our children of behaviors and habits that they will pick up (good or bad) and reflect.

I want to change.
And I want our boys to change, so I WILL change.

Time is going by so fast and I want our boys to grow up in a happy and loving environment where they can thrive!! <3 :)